im sorry

Whats the point when i know it does nothing

to tell you how i feel cuz you dont understand

you say you know what i mean when i say "I love you"

but in the next sentence you say im taking it too hard

if you truly knew what it felt like than you would not say that

What do you say when you say "I love you"

do you know what your saying??

when i say it i am saying many things

i am saying that i would do anything for you

i would go through the pain of seeing you with my best freind

just because it makes you happy and i know he treats you well

then a month later you end up with my enemy

and its not supposed to hurt????

that is what i get from you.

i hear "your taking it too hard" and "i know how you feel"

but you dont, you know nothing of how i feel

all you know is what you want to know

you think its easy to be like this?

Do you think i like being like this?

all i do is think about you every second of every day

and you tell me you know what its like

i honestly wish i could beleive you on that one

I love you more than life itself

without you i have nothing but with you he has everything

i hope that you can forgive me for what ive done

but i dont expect you to

if it makes you a better person in the end

than it is worthwhile for you to hate me

because that is what i want

for you to be as good as you can be

i will stand back and watch you be with him

and hide my pain until it kills me

goodbye my freind and i hope you will realize it someday

how i feel and how i felt

but im done for now and im going to mend my freindships

for i have hurt people because i cant let you go

and i need to fix those for you and me

to everyone else out there that is mad at me

im sorry to all of you also

especially you alyssa...im pointing you out by name

so you can see how sorry i am

but when its all over will you remember me

or will i just be that guy that was a jerk in highschool?

i hope that you will forgive me and just know that your still my freind